On My Mind – The Blog

it’s just another life lesson right? was being abandoned by the most important person in my life another life lesson. or maybe god’s punishment.

it’s disturbing how my point of view has been fickle throughout this journey. i would love to retain just one. but, i concluded. having these radical changes in opinions indicates the amount of character development you had and at what level of maturity you are.

nonetheless, i still thought the same about somethings, cause there wasn’t any other way to see it. loving someone so much that u end up hurting them cannot be seen any other way than the way i see it right now. sometime’s, the more u love someone the more they’re able to hurt u. and as a very rational and logical reaction. u wanna hurt them too.

u want them to understand how much it hurt to be emotionally harmed by them. how stomach-turning it was, thinking about all the memories you shared. how pathetic it felt to give up fighting for ur own justice just to once again be with them. how depressing it was to not feel loved by them. even worse, when u think no one has ever loved u the same. ever. how hard it is to attempt to deny you still love them. no matter how many time they hurt u. no matter how much humiliation and self-disrespect u continuously put yourself through. they’re names will always be embedded in your heart.

I love you. .. .-.. .. .-